clear your doubts

salam ramadhan everyone! hope you earned your fasting day today. has anyone cheated?? haa you better not! Allah is wherever you are. ehehe. you know, it's sad to see some muslims eating in public restaurants during the day with no embarrassment especially the guys. *sigh* what really are their excuses for not fasting? i bet you guys have your period too huh?

so how bout your iftar today? i haven't had any kuih like usual. oh i miss yesterday tepung pelita! *seriously sedap tak tipu* it's the best i've ever tasted in my life. why? cause they made the bottom green layer using pandan leaves, not coloring. anyway, pls congrats me as i, had spent hours designing, 3 days exploring graphic application like a total tech-blind, and successfully completed doing my blog header. *finally*

oh! and to Ain & everyone who question my previous two posts, actually i just had an intention to write poetry when someone brought up to me about his ex-gf. btw i would like to dedicate these poems to my ex-bf, Chace Crawford (not his real name). LMAO! :D
                                                                                                                                                         you know you love me, Xx

this is the story of a broken heart II

now wait a minute.

your trashy friends with their dumb acts,
i didn't enjoyed to see you all bonded yet you loved it.

they grey smoke i didn't liked,
you inhaled it anyway.
your temper's high like you're demon,
it's uncontrollable i can't face down.
your jealousy was always out of place,
difficult to handle but i dealt with it.
insecurity was all you gave,
when you swore to protect me.
the trust you put on me,
you destroyed it.
i fought for all that i've got to save us,
you pushed me away.
clearly there's someone else,
instead you said our knot was a burden.
then my heart you bruised,
you just left me here to bleed.

like you're so perfect.

i put my faith in you.
what a stupid thing to do.
i hold on to you.
what a wasted time.
i tried so hard to be the one.
i didn't like who i had become.

that wasn't okay.

say hello to goodbye.
cause this was the end of you and me.
i'm sorry i decided to be me.
you'll never be good enough for me.
i hope you know you've lost my respect.
and i feel so much better when i'm not in your arms.


i made regrettable mistake.
i wish i told you from the start.
that this was never meant to last.
we should have never gone this far.
i should have never let my heart opened to you.


bear in mind.
i won't forget this scar baby.
but i would forget the hell YOU.

this is the story of a broken heart I

please change.
that's what you told me from the start.
you hated my way.
thought you were something special.
FOR YOU.
i tried to change.
i wanted to be better for you.


more i turned into a good girl.
less i surrounded around people.
more i communicated with you.


cleaner i came off.
farther i drifted from the ones i loved.
closer i got to you.


but that was okay.
you were the one i loved most.


what you were up to, i did not comprehend.
now you were testing me, and i lost.
you tore me with your words.
you grabbed my hand.
but you never showed me how.
there you said that again.
please change.
i did tried before.
to your satisfaction, that was not enough.
FOR YOU.
i tried to change.
i wanted to be the best for you.


less i stayed away from you.
more i ignored my best friends.


sweeter we both were.
bitter my friends were.


but was this okay?

bring it, old cars!

yeah yeah yeah. we went to a Mini Show on last Sunday (10 july). i mean me, my youngest brother, my mum and my dad. but there's no photo of my brother. he's such a fuss, never like to take pictures. despite, the events is quite grand i can say. very sunny though. yes, i've been meaning to add the fact that i DO NOT really like sun. HAHA. but i still like sunflower :D


there were a lot of cars actually. i think there were more than 60. for those who do not know, you might think they're all Mini Coopers, do you? no, you're totally wrong. let me correct your knowledge. MINI has many models. not just only Cooper. btw, Cooper is referring to the engine's name and it's very hard to find. so if anyone has Mini with the Copper S engine, yours is definitely rare and high-speed. Other MINIs are Mini Austin, Mini Clubman, Mini Mk I, Mini Mk II, Mini Mk III, Mini 1275 GT, Mini Van, Mini Wagon, Mini Pick-Up and Mini Mok. there're many more but these are the common ones.


the event was held in conjunction to "Malacca as The World Heritage City" 3rd celebration. i lovee the tourists. they were like wowing and kinda touched cause Malaysians cherish these cute cars and keep it smashing. just like they have in London. we brought the golden orange car and YAY! we won the lucky draw. the plate number always brings luck! if anybody's thirsty or hungry, there won't be anything. all you ever find were the booths that sold the Mini's spareparts. so, eat 'em! haha. there's even a competition called "Guess How Many Balloons?" inside a car(photo above), all the balloons were in there. so a man had nailed this. he guessed 152 and it's exactly the answer. while i, had written 84. not even close!! damn it. nevermind, i enjoyed anyway. :))

i ♥ UK

let me say this out loud, imma HUGE fan of British flag! oh that's why i just love to see it on everything :)

for the time being, the only thing i wanted the most is this...

still in searching. well, i really have to change my Lamborghini skin. not that it is scratched. just too bored seeing it every time i open it and for the main reason that it had become so dull. seriously, i have to find this! 

aren't these stuffs cool?? :D

it's not a death wish, it's a fashion statement

i can't help myself lately. i browsed into so many websites just to search bout this thing. gosh! i become passionate about it. all the time simply looking through the styles, accessories, colors, brands and looks...i'm drooling all over and over again. i must admit, i am certainly like those ppl who call themselves, Fashion Victims. oops correction. i am one rite now.

i am going crazy about 

FASHION!!!!!!

i am soooo dying for this one! 

i fell in love with this when it was featured in Gossip Girl Season 2 Episode 13. watching Jenny Humphrey (played by Taylor Momsen) carried this, it's truly fascinating! bags hold everything. this Bodhi Safety Pin Clutch is so unique n extraordinary. with an oversized of gold safety pin handle, it is very on the cutting edge of style. the craftmanship is top notch, with Italian pebbled leather n authentic patent trim. it has my acquired taste. but this cute clutch is more expensive than many clutches n yet to me, it's worthwhile for a great work of modern art! how can u not want this? ohh pls, can someone help me to get this on a good price? idk if i could find this on the internet. probably i will purchase it online.  :)

forgot many yesterdays

currently, this is 2nd semester. now, FINAL EXAM MODE. 
FINAL EXAM! FINAL EXAM! FINAL EXAM! 
i realise i hadn't post much on the blog. nearly all weeks for this sem had been very tiresome and hectic. been very busy to complete this and that. non-stop assignments. attended a lot of tests. sadly, i didn't spend enough time to focus on myself. that wasn't so cool 'cause i spent too little time hanging out with friends, a very few number of days if u wanna know. 


somehow, u forget to live ur life for a moment because of the routine as a student. yes, there's never been enough time for me to do all the things i want. it's been fun studying. but the tense of it started to evolve and keep rising. waiting for the volcano to vomit its hot lava in any minute, NO i don't wanna explode. so nowww....i'm taking some time to sit back for a while to cool down. 


i can't wait to be back in Seremban. i love the fact that my parents are gonna come to pick me up. so damn glad! cause my stuffs are pretty massive. my last paper is on friday. i never go home since i arrived here on 26 dec 2010. nearly 4 months. it makes me homesick and all i think about rite now is my family especially my little brother, my cat and my room. i wanna sleep in my comforter and never wake up. i wanna make spaghetti, cakes and eat so much like i never eat before. i wanna tickle my cat so hard until she meows to my mum that i bother her a lot. i wanna play ping pong on the wall with my lil brother like squash until my cat gets distracted when the next min she tries to catch the ball. i wanna go supper with my dad + my two brothers after midnite with mini cooper and test-driving it like a crazy racer to reach top speed. 


this time, no place is better but home. 
oh guys! i miss home so bad.............. :(

towards computer sciences

yesterday we all had workshop. there was briefing on what specialisations we wanna take. they gave us 3 choices. i just made up my mind. idk wat would gonna be. after all, i chose to major in..........

 1st choice - Software Engineering (SE) 

 2nd choice - Distributed Systems & Security 

 3rd choice - Information System Engineering (ISE) 

the dean evn asked us to write some words of why we r choosing those majors. n i say i'd prefer SE. first maybe bcoz of the title. but the seniors said that there's no programming. none in SE. but i like coding (not too much of course). in fact, it's more of readings which i dont like at all. while security does hv this programming applied. so, i've no idea. i kinda interested in it too. deeply thinking, im scared. i'm confuse. i mean dis is my future! i hope i've done the best for myself n i really hope that i made the right decision. i don't wanna go through things i will regret. god, give me courage for the next 3 years coming. the most important thg, i really really hope i wont be in probation. just need a motivation...aim for the goal baybeh! u can do it!

how to get rid?

there's million times pop ups written "Your computer might be at risk." not enough, ive got tons of emails. yeah yeah yeah. that's McAfee speaks for. should feed me more than 50 dollars to shut it up for a year. that's all it gets. whatta STUPID SOLUTION!!!                  

                                             

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

the best of friends,

can change a frown,

into a smile,

when you feel down.

the best of friends,

will understand,

your little trials,

and lend a hand.

the best of friends,

will always share,

your secret dreams,

because they care.

the best of friends,

worth more than gold,

give all the love,

a heart can hold.

HIDAYAH. besties in standard 3 back in primary school. funniest thing was, we admired the same boy!

secondary school. BUDAK RUKUN 17. call us HALOGENS. (u know why it is if u r taking Chemistry)

met these 3 idiots in matrics. when they drive me nuts, i just love them more for being just a lil bit daring n just a lil bit quirky!

wing-mates. in matrics too. VERY happening, awesome & full of dramas. ohh they love to make so much noise!

 now univ life. another gang called TUNGGAL. never miss a laugh every single day. laughing out so loud not caring of ppl around, that's just us!  

zero luck

TERRIBLE DAY! the unluckiest! i've sighed so many times today. lost count of it. it happened dis morning. okay, lemme list them.

1 - otw to class while riding in the campus bus, there was a seat which got so much water spilled on it. didn't notice coz the seat's color is dark. i sat on it. at first i thought it was the aircond's. the last minute, i think it's choc dutch lady or coffee or smthg as it left a huge, lovely choc color traces on my pants after that. n even smell too.
2 - i sat with only 1/4 of my butt on the seat. it was really wet! wanna change to other seat, but it's damn full.
3 - no luck, they got no tissue. had just asked my friends. totally stressed thinkin bout it.
4 - little spilling of my strawberry dutch lady which i just drank, came out from its container direct towards my bag.
5 - again, no tissue.
6 - walking along the pedestrian bridge by covering my pants so hard hoping ppl won't see the stain.
7 - take another bus then. the sling of my bag slipped out suddenly from its clip when i was just about to get off the bus.
8 - grabbing fast my bag. not covering now. i felt so clumsy at that moment. while worrying of that bloody ugly-stained pants. i'm sure, ppl alrdy saw it.
9 - just after i passed my book(damn thick+heavy!) that i'm holding to ain, she started to trip. it all just happened. she's quite embarrassed coz there's so many ppl around.

there! sort of long list huh! pity ain. so sorry for that, really. i would say, it's very awful that things messed up for today. i am so done. matter fact, ain claimed that my bad luck had infected her. no! i'm not carrying any luck.pls. but just for today. TODAY okay. so, blame me for nothing! haha. when i think it all back, it was kinda funny anyway.LOL. whatevr it is, i had my day today. :D

without u baby..

it was such a long time i've been away. poor my bloggie, sorry i didn't update u. just because i'm having my BABY (lappy) broken down for bout 5 days and it's i-don't know-how-much damage dis lappy has gone through n me too. we've gone through a lot rite, baby? yeah, i'm getting trouble to search for someone who can repair cuz i'm so lazy to bring it to Acer centre. haha.okay, slap me u lappy sweetheart! if i could, i'd do it myself. of course then i'll become like Si Luncai Yang Membaiki Labu. haha.


yay! thank god, i could finally find my first option by dropping it for checkings n some services to the technician in our school. i'm glad that he offered to help. i can see he's kinda busy but yeah, he's willing to give his hand. the problems all started when i inserted my hard disk. n i played a dvd. my mistake, i copied the dvd to save into the hard disk when i was supposed to rip it. duhh! that's total moron. why couldn't i read the label first?? it's DVD u moron! well, he did do some helpings. thanks to him. but, i think it's temporary. i hv my instinct that it's gonna happen again. i mean the damages. 

for now, my baby is feeling better. however, she's still sick. there's a few lil damages which make me feel annoyed. first, the hard disk indicator is still blinking, which means it's still running but gees i'm not even insert it. then the scroller of the touchpad doesn't working tho. next is when i'm volume up, it doesn't appear on the screen. think it might hv smthg to do with the setting, idk. nvm, i'll try to take care of her as much as i can. hoping u'll get well soon, baby!
                                                                                                                                      with love ♥

all for TOMORROW!

now i'm in the comp lab. need to stop breathing for a moment. ahhh...~ supermassive work loads! can't sit straight. idk what's going on to me today but i can't feel the ground anymore. okay. first thing, TOMORROW, one assignment of Mathematical Methods needs to be submitted. fucking tough i don't even understand the questions!! next, there's gonna be 3 tests for TOMORROW. damn it. that's a lot. have to prepare for english test TOMORROW. math methods test TOMORROW. programming test TOMORROW. but just few min ago our tutor, Marilyn announced there'll be no programming test. luckily. wuhoooo! i wanna scream like hell..!! funny. i just remembered. know what? my course-mate like to call her Marilyn Manson. which is no way it suits her because she's so cute and gentle. aww.she must be proud that i mention her in my entry. it's even in the second post! thank god anyway. one burden reduced at least. i hope i'll be better TOMORROW. c'mon u go girl! u got the spirit! :D hey when did i start to have wisdom like dis? aha. not inspiring enough was it? 

who's that fella?

hey there! hi earth ppl..! imma newbie 'ere. well. i've to say that this is my first time getting involve in this bloggie thingy. it just happened, u know. i'm addicted to reading others' page so i think i might start to write one. i'm kinda excited. not kinda. SUPER excited! gosh.i feel so good. having this medium to express feelings, makes me more relieved cause things hadn't be so easy for the past few days including today. orally, i'm not actually good, so it's such a great way for me to pour all things out into words. this could be like a diary or jurnal, isn't it? ;)

let me introduce myself. wth? it should be the first thing! okay.let me start again. for the first part, yeah u can see my name as written at the bottom there. u can call me Juwa. at first i found it lame when my aunt suddenly came up with that name for her lil daughter to call me but i like it then. Najwa would be okay. but Hanis? nahh.that doesn't come into my preference. Wawa? urghh so weird. sounds girlish. unacceptable. enough of names, moving on. 


currently i'm studying in USM. so i'm staying in penang, it's my first year of second semester. taking comp sc course, which i'm not really like. that's one of asshole craps that ever occured to me. wish i could turn it around but seems like i've been destined to get into this place. crap oh crap. seriously. my future wouldn't even follow my ambition. i wanted to be an accountant. hell i'm going into science stream. duhh. so ppl, stop being so ambitious.LOL JK. u can. but it's everyone's fate, so depends. i guess i'm not fortunate enough. still, i'm glad. cause i've many friends ere. dude, they rock! sempoi + fun. besides the environment's nice. one thing is, it's quite far to reach home when there's semester break. i wish i could bring my dad's mini cooper. cute car isn't it? but my dad said that he would only let me bring it on my 3rd year. really have to wait patiently until berjanggut semua.haha. or maybe, i could make puppy face to dad, begging him, giving lame excuses n stuff. as if it's working. never will.

supposedly i have assignments to be done and now we're talking bout THE PRESENT. urgh i hate reality. but yeah, relaxing ere spending time on writing some unimportant things rather than finishing any work. well that's just me. whatta lazybump! need to stop procrastinating.

i think i'd better stop for awhile. guess u haven't know me much. i'll be writing more and u'll get to know me.
                                                                                                                                                          make ♥ , not war. x0x0 :))